I know you still think of me
It’s like your eyes sending signals through your pixels
Starring through the device in the palm of your hands
Directly to my mind
Which is why you’re there all the time
Drinking this wine make the memories I hold on to rotate so intensely
I lose it whenever I get a glimpse
I just know I’d get drunk off just one kiss
I know you still think of me
Dealing with your trauma the best way I know how
Living and breathing on shells daily
Stuck under a rock and a wall you placed between us
Frozen at the front door of my own home
I see you working on demanding more of me
The look on your face when you think you’ve got it figured out
Afraid to let me in
I see the child and I want to set her free
But she can’t be freed here
To the young girl with the empty notepad
Exploring the unknown
Trying to find the words to express her hurt
Her sadness
Yet, forgiveness
The darkness that forced her to leave
A place that is now so foreign
A place which awakens her with memories of drifting away slowly, forever
She never takes enough
An emptiness that you can hear from the outside of her body
Hallow and silent
Her destination surely determines her fate
Stuck in the belly of something inhuman
Drowning me in its emptiness
Voices fill my auricle
Now my mind is infested with fear
Fear of leaving myself behind
No knowledge of time
Or measurement of love
Poison consumed to cope with the darkness
My mind is now a prison
Unable to reach any depth
Vision is blurred
Shedding the images of self worth
Words cut like chains; ripping through my soul
I fight back with fire
Smoke filling my lungs
In hopes of keeping me numb for as long as I am here
Swallowed, but I have made it my home
I am in human
