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Negative Thoughts

By Stanciu Razvan

I see what you can’t see in me

Or what you refuse to see in me

So many years have been wasted on thoughts of unworthy

I am unworthy of a lot of things

At least that’s what I tell myself

I don’t always feel that way,

But when I do.. I really do

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I Don’t Blame You

Drift By Wendy Van

When I’m feeling low and unappealing

You’re always there with your natural healing

The scum of the earth with a bruised ego

Forever reminding myself why I don’t matter

And there you are

Hands ready to catch me as I fall in the pit of my own negligence

I never knew what the ground tasted like because you’re always there

Now that you’re elevated

Unreachable

I can barely pick my face up

The taste of cement on the back of my tongue

The cracked teeth to remind me of my new struggle

Which is all I know now

You used to be there

I depended on you for comfort

Too afraid to rely on my own love

Bullied by the toxic traits I live with daily

Abusing the hidden bottles under my sink

Well, they were hidden when you used to check on me

Now they’re half empty

Under my bed

On my shirts

In my nails

Oozing out of my pores

You left the moment you realized you are no savior

I resemble the plague that once invaded your pure mind

I accepted once I realized I could only save myself

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I Want Out

Max Gasparini

some days I want to crawl out of my body

Not because of discomfort

Because of too much comfort

I hate the daily routine

The mild confusion I get

Everything gets so foggy

The tiredness

The fact the I refuse to change certain habits although it benefits me

Too much comfort

I want to claw my way through my chest

That’s where I feel the most

I don’t want to feel some days

I want to claw through my mind

Remove all negative behaviors

That’s where it all start

Too much to bare

When it’s my time to open up

I have too much to share

I just want to free myself

Then come back when I’m ready

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Stop Running from Yourself

Finding Myself By Valerie Runningwolf

I’ve never understood your type, ya know

So quick to make decisions about things you know nothing about

So quick to play the victim when situations are not in your favor

Never want to hold yourself accountable

Afraid of confrontation in fear of being disliked

or maybe disowned by people you love

You never think about your actions

Only after everything is already said and done

You escape from the light

Back to what feels familiar

Solidarity

You come back as if nothing happened

But it never is

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Passing Time

Passing Time By Adam Lupton

Help me escape the place I’ve created in my thoughts

Pillow talking to myself hoping it would make it serene

I dug a hole in my mind to hide you from myself

The parts of myself I have yet to control

But you always seem to find a way out

Almost as if you’re trying to be me in order to free yourself

Tired of being a prisoner of my mind

I want to forget you and you want to disappear

It sometimes make me feel wanted when you’re around

Like I once existed in your world

But I know it was just a phase

And I’m just another girl

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Our Complex Emotions

Divide By Lionel Smit

I don’t expect you to understand me

I expect a deep connection

One that stimulates my brain and have me weak at the knees

I don’t want you to be attached to our relations

Leave me with the satisfaction that you don’t need me

Come back to me when you’re detached from the idea of us

Lets reach a peak and leave

Just to come back and reach it again

Until we can no longer feel

That way it won’t hurt

Not a bottle could compare to this feeling

Not a blunt in this world could compare

An addiction you’ve never experience

One without real attachments

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Did I Get your Attention?

Drained II By Kai Samuels-Davis

What am I missing?

Masculinity?

Does my face not resemble the architect of a model?

Am I not extended over your shoulders enough to look down upon you?

Has my brain not reached the intellect capacity you seek so much?

Am I too reserved for your you?

Your narcissism has reached its peak

Stretching my arms out in desperation

I have yet to get your attention

I may never

I left a note for you, about you

Hopefully that’ll get your attention

I left a piece of my heart incase you have overused yours with worthless beings that’d rather see you cry

I reserved a space in my home incase they’ve had enough and drained you

I hope me giving is enough

I hope that gets your attention

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It Was Always You

I realized you were the one when you stayed longer

You listened to my worries,

even when repeated

I really wanted you there and you wanted to be there

You leaned into my trauma, not taking it on as your own

But to be my support blanket

You wrapped your warm arms around me

Night and day

Day and night

Some days we never saw the sun come up

You watched me stretch across that finish line

You waited for me on the other side

It was alway you