Inhuman

Stuck in the belly of something inhuman

Drowning me in its emptiness

Voices fill my auricle

Now my mind is infested with fear

Fear of leaving myself behind

No knowledge of time

Or measurement of love

Poison consumed to cope with the darkness

My mind is now a prison

Unable to reach any depth

Vision is blurred

Shedding the images of self worth

Words cut like chains; ripping through my soul

I fight back with fire

Smoke filling my lungs

In hopes of keeping me numb for as long as I am here

Swallowed, but I have made it my home

I am in human

Lightweight

Letting go is like floating on top of water

The waves crashing against my body

Opening my eyes to discover the ocean blue sky

The tightness in my muscles banish

My fingers and toes start to tingle

I am suddenly so relaxed, I’m numb

My face begins to curve

I am suddenly smiling

Goosebumps appear all over my body

So fulfilled

So unbothered

And so at peace

Lost

How can you know me?

I barely know myself;

I know who I’m becoming

Lost

Dark rings around my eyes

Always searching for depth

Sucked dry of the small bit of energy I have left

Knees so weak

So tired of trying to find you

6 a.m.

Still got the taste of you on the tip of my tongue

Legs wrapped around my neck like bear hugs

Sheets wrinkled;

gripped by your fingers

Scratches look like art on my shoulders

Moaning til the sun comes up

But I’ll still be down here

Fear

Speak to me without fear

Let me know you’re speaking with a clear mind

We can’t keep breaking each other down with words that hit like thick whips,

Ducking when I here that clip

wounds left open, blood seeping through our clothes

Leaving reminders why we shouldn’t do this anymore

Leaving pain

Scars reminding me daily how toxic this is

Speak to me without fear

Think before you speak, rather

Express your hurt through words that doesn’t leave me permanently critical

why you gotta be so cynical?

Leaving me useless, because that’s how you make me feel

I look in the mirror sometimes and see the hurt you want me to be

You don’t realize the words you speak match my frequency

Speak to me without fear

Tell me how you really feel

Let’s move some mountains til the coast is clear

Finally feeling weightless and gaining so much patience

You speak with so much power in your lungs

I finally understand what you’ve been saying

Dunkirk

I hate you, but I love you.

Not enough to disturb my peace I have created within.

I love me more,

But you’re always here,

Just arms length; stretching as far as they can.

The thought of you beside me makes my blood boil and evaporate just by your touch.

You say my words cut deep; pulling them out your eyes and arms

We love this game we play.

Always ends in fire and burnt bridges,

But you always find a away back just to see me in pain

This time only you came back to where we left off…

 

Almost There

Trust the process

Protect it with each finger working as shields

One day this stress will become a lesson

Eventually, that lesson will be apart of your life’s journey

we often get stuck because we think we are lost, just keep moving

Falling too hard on your face

Leaving a scar only a mother could love

Don’t let it define you

Let it inspire you

Branch out, far and wide.

Spread your wings

Let your past be your motivation

Your past does not define you

We are all problematic; we are not perfect

Never will be

Accept that your path may be rough and others are not so much

Find a way to incorporate those adversities in your everyday life

Blessings are on the way, love

Trust your process

The Art of Letting Go

Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to myself. I’ve begun to acknowledge the words I put into the universe; it always seems to come back 10x depending on what you put out. I’ve been extremely vulnerable these past few months and it’s taken me back a bit. I’m so raw and honest about my emotions and my position in life right now that I feel as though people are walking away. It’s really sad because I care for these people so much, but the reciprocation is nonexistent. I love and care for myself as well as them so much that I am allowing these beings to be set free from me. It hurts to see them slowing disappearing, but I know it is vital that I let go. In order for me to continue flourishing, I must do what feels right for all parties. Letting go and evolving into the woman I hope to be. Love yourself endlessly so that no one else feels they have to.

Deprived

Tracing your shoulders and clavicles with the tip of my fingers

Sending chills down your thighs

Watching your eyes roll back

Watching you bite your bottom lip

Wishing It was between my lips instead

Imagining what flavor you’ll have lingering on my lips when you’re away

Hoping this time you won’t be gone too long

Having to find the words every time we meet-to having a hard time finding your panties

I like when you leave them here; a souvenir

It reminds me how wet my fingers were when I slid them down

The time it took to get you here doesn’t compare to the work I put in when you wore my favorite dress

Caressing your body, making you feel at home before you dip

Before you leave, don’t

I wish you could stay longer,

Staying longer means more work

So I let you cum when she got you stressed

YOU

Even though you are sad a lot

I look at you and smile

You are the most beautiful person I have ever known

Your heart is so big

You love the people that are in your life to the fullest

Your worst days are actually your best days

You walk through life like it’s your last

You appreciate the small things in life

The people in your life genuinely care for you and love you

Life isn’t always easy, but you live for the hard days

The days that challenge you the most

The days that push you out of your comfort zone

Nothing comes easy, but you’d rather work for it anyway

You pray for others more than you pray for yourself

Waking up is enough to be happy about for you

Seeing your family happy enough to live on

You acknowledge how special and beneficial you are to this earth

You serve a purpose

You simply, love

I am so happy to be you